Sleep/cat – Calvin Westra

June 30, 2021

He can’t figure out where his cat is until he remembers that his cat is dead. This is because he can see her sometimes as a little waking blur and there isn’t an IV taped to her mitten or a vet checking her empty chest for life.

In this state she is still and he is watching her until he realizes the dishonest nature of these moments. He sometimes retreats into primal moods when this happens, an animal urge to sniff the carcass, to poke her with his snout, to lick her face, because he is confused, awake, cheated, and his friend isn’t moving, she isn’t even there.