Taken with This Life – Little Tank
May 3, 2022
pagan spring 2
in you I entrust all my lust
letters I wrote you never read
you can make anyone regret opening up to you
how many men have you tossed in the bin?
how many men are in your compost?
it’s sacrilegious to pray to God for a woman but I did
in this water I asked to be baptized
in this pagan spring I deface your sacrilege
and commit my own again
gullible
love is so gullible
and now I’m so jaded
pedestalize me
I will be your ideal world
I will hurt you because you believe in me
and I will never let you down
because I am never going to leave you alone
you will think of me while you sleep with other men
about how great I am, about how special I am
you will imagine you are with me
anytime you are alone
we will talk once in a while
but it will feel like love for a real eternity
you will carry me with you like a sword
and you will lose every battle
I am a prayer and a hope
I am a dream you keep having and can never recall
thorns
nothing but the rind left
nothing but this immaculate conception
nothing but born in America
nothing but living twice
old fashioned grit
American reserve
you too can get what you want
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a rose without thorns
a mule missing a leg
the life you pine for
the life you miss